Damn my luck...I'm back in the rut. I fell back into the confusion but I guess I'm happier in the confusion. Who even knows anymore because I sure don't. Tomorrow's the last day of school this week! Woop, woop! Then it's Turkey Day(Thanksgiving) time :DDD

Woot!

Confusion's gone cause I'm movin' on! :D

I'm officially confused...you tell me that you like me and that you don't want me to move on but we can't be together and I reallyyy want to be with you. I care about you and I would do anything for you in a heartbeat. Even with everything you've put me through but you continue to go back to the person that treats you like pure shit. You're going to get hurt by that person...again, but don't worry...I'll be here for you when they do...just like I always am. I don't want to move on but maybe it's for the better if I do? Who knows...I just want all the confusion to be gone /:

A hug from you makes everything better...happy Courtney :)

Well, Momma came home from the hospital Friday night. They still don't know what was wrong and she has to go back for some check ups soon. It's sad that something this traumatic has to happen to learn who your true friends are but it did and I did learn who those people really are. Moving on from the past and losing one shitty ass "friend"...if she could've even been called that to begin with...

Daddy just texted Caitlin...they're keeping her overnight...not sure how to take that but all that seems to register is the bad /:

I can't sleep...Momma's in the hospital...and has been for 3 hours. About 4 hours ago she had my sister call our oldest sister and then turned right around and said that she was having a hard time breathing so we called 911...they showed up, did some stuff for about an hour and then took her in the ambulance to New Hanover. One of our neighbors, Mrs. Lori, came and checked to see what was wrong. Christin and Lou went in a separate car to the hospital while Caitlin had John get a hold of Daddy while he was at work. Daddy left work and went straight to the hospital. I've been stuck at home this whole time and I can't sleep. School tomorrow is going to be a pain in the ass. I'm just so worried...we still don't know what's wrong. About 2 hours ago they got her hooked up to wires and took x-rays but still no call from dad to say what's going on. I'm starting to get really worried. I know Caitlin's worried too because she never cleans and that's all she's done since Momma left. Daddy came home to change and get the truck so when and if Momma gets released he can bring her home...I really want my Momma right now...I'm just so scared...I'm like 98% positive that I'm gonna break down in some classes tomorrow and I'm definitely not putting up with ANYBODY'S bullshit...if they think that they're lives are so bad I dare them to come and talk to me after they have a scare like this where one of their parents almost stop breathing...they'd quit bitching immediately.

I can honestly say that I'm some-what happy right now! I just wanna be with, talk to and cuddle with you all the time! You're a perfect gentleman to bring home to my parents with just enough wackiness in you for you to get along with my friends. I love it! Goodness, you make me smile so much! :D

So I like this guy...a lot! He's super sweet and adorable. Every time I'm not having a good day he asks me what's wrong and listens to everything that's going wrong. His goofy little smile just melts my heart, his laugh makes me smile, his hugs make me feel safe and everything about him just seems so right. :)

To be cuddled up next to you right now would be amazing. I need the warmth and security I feel when your arms are around me and I just need a hug in general to get rid of this shitty feeling.

Omg, life has been crazy these past few weeks. Still some family drama(that's normal), a party(with a cute boy ;) ), school and homework. Lucky for me though I don't have homework tonight so I think that I'ma pop in a scary movie and cuddle up under my comforter. That cute boy from the party is welcome to join if he'd like. Haha! :)

Why did I tell my sister that I would babysit for her again? Oh right! It's because I'm a good sister. Lets just say that she's going to owe me big time because now Momma's sick and I'm going to be up until midnight babysitting for her...if she even gets home on time. It's a good thing that I love my nephew to death or I would hate myself for this :P

Well today was an awful, horrible, rotten, no good day :( I was sick ALL day. I got some 24 hr stomach virus from my sister and her son. All I did today was sleep and hurl and I had already been stuck in the house Friday and Saturday thanks to Hurricane Irene. BLEH! Finished my English letter. Probably gonna crash soon since I have to get up in 6 & 1/2 hrs for Flex class. Lets hope that I can even go tomorrow. I really can't afford to miss many days of school this year.

Well...I've been stuck sitting at home since Thursday night and have been bored out of my freakin' skull! Power has gone out twice(it's back now though) and it's been flickering since Friday morning. Cable has gone out twice. Once Friday morning and again Friday night(It's still off now). At least we have Netflix so we can watch movies and shows as long as our power doesn't go off. Thank goodness Hurricane Irene is almost past us...maybe I should start working on my English paper that's possibly still due on Monday

First day of school = success
Second day of school = cancelled due to Hurricane Irene
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Thanks for already giving us a make up day >_<

Woooooooooohooooooooooo!!!

It's Junior year babyyy!!! :D